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failure is not an option
July 11, 2019 5:27pm
This is me, smiling on the outside but a nervous wreck on the inside as I make my way to a possible life changing interview. In my last post I told you all about how I was trying to promote myself and shortly after making some adjustments to my life style, this opportunity sort of fell into my lap. I dared to hope that I would get this position but I still felt a tug to stay where I currently am.
During the first part of this process for applying for this new position, I realized that although I said I wanted a change, I was not prepared for a change. So, I had to revamp my resume and interviewing skills. I loathe resumes and interviews because I don't believe they provide a true depiction of a person's work ethics nor of their ability to fulfill or even excel at the job they are applying for. I am fortunate to have a few HR minded and business major folks as family and friends who were able to help coach me preparing my resume and for the interview. With my updated resume and application submitted, I patiently waited with hopes of a call for an interview.
I received a phone call the night before the first interview that I was going to be interviewed the next day at 12:30pm. I had no time to get nervous because there were only a few hours between the phone call and the interview. I went to the interview ready to give it all that I had and I did. They did not offer me the job but asked me back for a 2nd interview. Once again I was fortunate to have an interviewer that provided feedback. I listened to the feedback but more like obsessed over the feedback and tried to make sure I would be perfect for the 2nd interview.
Fast forward to the interview today. I was so nervous about saying the wrong things or saying things incorrectly that I actually did not say enough. You know when you get in an argument with someone and after the argument you think of all of the things you could've said? That's how I felt after this interview. There were so many things I could've shared to help show that I was the perfect person for this position. Needless to say, I did not get the job but I did have some great take aways from this whole opportunity.
Here are my 5 major takeaways:
1. Promotions do not come from man, but our Father who knows the perfect timing.
2. Your goals and God's goals can be the same but they may have different timings and different paths.
3. Stay ready, so you don't have to get ready.
4. Feel the fear, and do it anyway.
5. There is so much beauty and character being built in not succeeding.
I look forward to growing and learning right from where I am. Life can be messy but there's a Father who can handle and use all of our messes to make a beautiful masterpiece. I challenge you to think of the things you may seem to be failing at and find the beauty in it. Thanks for joining me on this life journey, until next time.
Signing off,
Sasha
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Getting clarity
May 26, 2019 8:35am
Here I am cheesing and living my best life at one of my best friend's awesome Beautiful Boss Women in White 2019 event! It was truly amazing and I met so many beautiful boss women that are making great moves in life. After a great chat with one of the panelist who encouraged me to start blogging....Here I am!!! It wasn't until after she suggested it that I started to think of all the things I had to say. I am currently a wife, a bonus mom, a dog mom, an author, a teacher, and a minister and I'm still trying to put on more hats. I don't know how many other people are like me but for some reason I cannot seem to stop piling responsibilities onto my plate! When I complete one, I am drawn to like 5 others and in the process I end up becoming burnt out and stressed. It wasn't until recently that I realized I had this terrible habit of biting off more than I could chew. Just because you are capable of doing everything, doesn't mean that you should do everything. Some things are just not worth peace and sanity and sometimes it's difficult to realize you are giving up so much of your peace when each time you accept a new challenge you are only giving a small piece of it away.
I found myself taking 2 classes that would add special endorsements to my teaching certificate while still trying to promote my 2 children's books, be a wife, be a bonus mom, be a good friend, teach 2nd grade, plan projects and fun activities, prepare messages for church, do laundry (because that's a whole other animal in itself), read daily, workout daily, eat properly, and just be an adult. I stopped and asked myself, why am I doing this because if you don't have a strong why, then you may want to stop doing what you're doing. I realized at the core of my why was a lack of trust. I was taking these classes to get the endorsements to help God help put me where I wanted to be. I hated taking the classes and was completely stressed just thinking about them and the assignments. A huge weight was lifted when I finally sat down and had my moment of clarity. God doesn't need our help to promote us in the sense that I was trying to help. If I did things my way and was successful in it, then it would discredit God. So many times I felt and heard God within my spirit say, "I got you." But I continue to get in the way of letting God do what He does. Sometimes you just have to relax and let God do things in His time and that's just what I intend to do. I dropped one of the classes because it was too late to drop the other one. I feel so much hope in the prospect of how God will move in my life! What things are you holding that you should give to God? I've given Him my load and I'm going to be spending time soaking up the sun and relaxing in peace and clarity until next time.
Signing off,
Sasha
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