July 11, 2019 5:27pm

This is me, smiling on the outside but a nervous wreck on the inside as I make my way to a possible life changing interview. In my last post I told you all about how I was trying to promote myself and shortly after making some adjustments to my life style, this opportunity sort of fell into my lap. I dared to hope that I would get this position but I still felt a tug to stay where I currently am.

During the first part of this process for applying for this new position, I realized that although I said I wanted a change, I was not prepared for a change. So, I had to revamp my resume and interviewing skills. I loathe resumes and interviews because I don't believe they provide a true depiction of a person's work ethics nor of their ability to fulfill or even excel at the job they are applying for. I am fortunate to have a few HR minded and business major folks as family and friends who were able to help coach me preparing my resume and for the interview. With my updated resume and application submitted, I patiently waited with hopes of a call for an interview.

I received a phone call the night before the first interview that I was going to be interviewed the next day at 12:30pm. I had no time to get nervous because there were only a few hours between the phone call and the interview. I went to the interview ready to give it all that I had and I did. They did not offer me the job but asked me back for a 2nd interview. Once again I was fortunate to have an interviewer that provided feedback. I listened to the feedback but more like obsessed over the feedback and tried to make sure I would be perfect for the 2nd interview.

Fast forward to the interview today. I was so nervous about saying the wrong things or saying things incorrectly that I actually did not say enough. You know when you get in an argument with someone and after the argument you think of all of the things you could've said? That's how I felt after this interview. There were so many things I could've shared to help show that I was the perfect person for this position. Needless to say, I did not get the job but I did have some great take aways from this whole opportunity.

Here are my 5 major takeaways:

1. Promotions do not come from man, but our Father who knows the perfect timing.

2. Your goals and God's goals can be the same but they may have different timings and different paths.

3. Stay ready, so you don't have to get ready.

4. Feel the fear, and do it anyway.

5. There is so much beauty and character being built in not succeeding.

I look forward to growing and learning right from where I am. Life can be messy but there's a Father who can handle and use all of our messes to make a beautiful masterpiece. I challenge you to think of the things you may seem to be failing at and find the beauty in it. Thanks for joining me on this life journey, until next time.

Signing off,

Sasha

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